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I am living my sixty third year of life. The age my father suddenly died. ~I am a grandmother; though in my head I will always be eighteen. That is my secret to my inner youth, my dreams, my hopes and my optimism. It is my resolve to thinking no mistake cannot be fixed and there is no wrong that cannot be righted. I believe in that which I cannot see and yes, I believe in love.
I want to take this time to say thank you.
Thank you for your patience and kindness.
Thank for your forgiveness ~ for my big mistakes and my little ones.
Thank you for the times you hug me tight as I quietly smell your hair.
Thank you for calling or writing me when I know you are busy.
Thank you for including me in the little things in your life because it makes me feel included.
Thank you for trusting me with the big things because I am always here to hold you up.
Thank you allowing me to walk with you even when we don’t talk. I am just savoring being beside you.
Thank you for sharing the most beautiful human beings you chose for partners in life and in love.
Thank you for my special time alone with each of you. It’s a gift so rich I could never describe it adequately.
Thank you for allowing me to sing to my grandson without interruption, even when it must be trying. I am remembering a time from long ago and creating a new precious memory.
Thank you for enduring my ritual of washing your dishes by hand. It is how I keep my father with me, as that was his daily practice.
Thank you for the extra kisses. When I feel your skin touch mine I am celebrating the joy of being a mother.
My children grew up such a long time ago.
Once I was your age and I still remember.
It is my curse and my blessing.
So thank you for giving me this moment to tell you all how much I love you. You are truly everything a parent could wish for ~ and more. I love the uniqueness of all that you are … each one of you a blessing and a treasure. I am so grateful for everything we share, the good times, the bad times and everything in between.
This is my love letter.
I open my heart and welcome opportunities to practice balance in the midst of suffering. I embrace all emotions and know I am steady and strong. I find comfort knowing each moment passes and a new emotion emerges. As I set my intention for calm, I breathe in positivity and release negative thinking. That is where my balanced soul resides. That is where I find peace.
My friend Laurel created a 90 day meditation challenge. Every night for 17 years I have listened to a guided mediation. I lay in bed, I listen, I learn, I relax, I fall asleep. I have cervical dystonia so this helps me relax my neck. How different could sitting meditation be? I’ve done it. I got this!
Day 1 as I sat for my mindfulness, awareness practice, I gently folded my legs under me, laying my palms gently open on my knees; chest open, (for openheartedness,) and I breathed in deeply as my legs screamed uncross me! Since this particular practice is about “unconditional friendliness towards oneself,” (Pema Chodron) I immediately complied, stretching my legs out slightly to ease the discomfort.
Day 3 I sat on the living room floor slightly more comfortable but too focused on noise downstairs, other sounds around me, and discomfort within me. I was unable to totally focus. This is called monkey mind. My thoughts were jumping all around.
But today the magic happened. I closed my eyes, breathed in and out with ease, relaxing my body, labeling my wandering thoughts “thinking” and my dystonia spasms as “feeling.” When my mind wandered, I simply brought myself back to the present. I was lost within myself in that precious space of inner peace where I could welcome and accept all that I felt and heard.
I am so grateful to be reminded of the value of sitting meditation as a daily discipline. My goal is to complete the challenge. However, my greater hope is to access that precious space of inner peace inside of me whenever I need it. What a powerful resource and an incredible gift.
At times I hear something that is so familiar – and I‘m sure I have never heard it before, yet I know it.
At times I meet someone, and I’m sure I have never met that person before, yet I know them.
At times I go somewhere that I have truly never been, yet I know that place; it’s so familiar.
When this happens, I am not surprised. I know it by the inner light that guides me. I am simply awakened by my knowing heart.
I whisper a prayer of gratitude.
To believe we are born with a conscious soul, an inner light, hidden wisdom or an angel’s touch is a blessing. To know we are all connected through this earth, each other, and G-d’s grace is a gift.
When I feel the abundance of good that surrounds me, I know I am choosing to live a life of insight and positivity. I acknowledge fear, anger and insecurity that seek to find a home. But, I choose the light, practice faith and love, catch myself when I slip, and remember my purpose. I trust in what I cannot see and know that this is what true faith means.